I love Instagram. I don’t post on my own account as often as I should, but I love to look at what others have posted. I take at least ten minutes a day and scroll through Instagram, and I do so with one sole purpose — to find colorful rooms or things that feed my love of color. They’re harder to find than you might imagine, so when I come across such a post, I click that little flag to add it to my “saved” posts.
The problem is that I use Instagram kind of like I used to use Pinterest. I save a ton of stuff, but I never go back and look at what I’ve saved (which is why I stopped using Pinterest). In fact, for a long time, I was saving stuff on Instagram without even knowing how to access the posts I had saved. 😀 I finally figured it out, but I still forget to go back and look at them.
Well, last night I was sitting in bed with my phone, winding down for the evening, and doing my nightly scroll through Instagram on the prowl for more colorful rooms to hoard in my collection of pictures, and I realized that I hadn’t looked at my saved posts in a while. So I clicked over, and y’all!! It was like a refreshing wave washed over me.
Oh my gosh, all of that color and pattern and texture and happiness!! And I just kept scrolling…
I don’t understand why my mind is wired this way, but it’s like I can’t get enough. I can never have enough color or pattern. I want all of the colors in my house. I want all of the textures and patterns (but mostly flowers, plants and birds with lots of geometric patterns mixed in).
And as I scrolled through all of these pictures, it dawned on me. Do you know what my biggest decorating mistake is?
I play it too safe.
That’s not really something that just dawned on me last night. That thought actually hit me like a ton of bricks the other day when I posted about my orange lamp makeover, and I dug through some old pictures to find a picture of the lamp in its original state. The picture that I found showed the lamp in the first living room makeover that I did in this house, and it just made me sad. That room looked so depressing to me. I almost hate to post it here and ruin all of this colorful happiness going on in this post, so you can click here to see it.
I said the other day that the first living room makeover was like I was decorating that room for someone else. And in a way, I was. I was decorating for who I thought should be “mature, adult Kristi,” whoever the heck she is.
I just remember having so much fun with color and patterns and textures in the condo, but then when we bought the house, somehow I got it in my mind that it was time to leave that “childish” stuff behind and create an “adult” space for us in the new house.
And evidently in my mind, “adult” meant dull, dark and boring.
It took me a while to swing the pendulum back the other direction and just embrace the fact that I love color, and lots of it. And as I get older, I don’t see any signs of that fading. In fact, my love of, and need for, color just seems to get stronger every day.
And that brings me to my #1 favorite room on Instagram right now. Are you ready? Here it is…
Yep, I definitely play it too safe. I can’t stop looking at this picture.
So why is it that I’m so drawn to rooms like that, and yet I live in a house with neutral walls in every single room I’ve worked on so far?
I don’t know, honestly. But I want to learn to follow my heart and my vision more. I want to learn to be bold(er) and stop being so easily swayed by other’s opinions. I need to learn that when someone says, “Oh, I think you should have painted that white instead of a color,” or, “I think you need more neutral and less color,” then that person clearly doesn’t know me, and his or her opinion probably shouldn’t be weighted the same as my own opinion. I need to learn to get out of my own way and stop doubting myself.
I really have no idea where I’m going with this. These are just the thoughts of a color-loving woman who can’t seem to get out of her own way. I want to stop playing it safe, and I want to learn to set my creative mind free and to let my love of color really drive my decorating decisions.
My studio will soon be a blank slate. I hope I can put some of these things into practice in there.