Hello there! So, I pulled a muscle in my back last week, and have had to spend the last few days in bed. Talk about a real let down. I had just made my final decision on my kitchen cabinet colors, I had decided what to do with my breakfast room walls, and I was well on my way to a completed decorating plan for my house and …BAM! Pulled muscle and five days of sitting still. It’s been almost more than I could bear.
The good news is that I’m feeling almost 100% today, so while I’m not going to work on any strenuous projects like building pantry cabinets for at least a week or so, I can do some easier and less strenuous projects for now.
I have to admit that these few days of down time have really been good, though. Very refreshing and re-energizing for me. I’ve had a massive stack of probably 50 or so magazines — a stack that I keep adding to each month — that I’ve never even looked at. Better Homes & Garden, Elle Decor, House Beautiful, Traditional Home, and more, some dating back to 2012 that I had never even looked at.
So I’ve been powering through that stack over the last few days. My idea was to flip through them very quickly, not really thinking, pondering, analyzing or anything like that. But just ripping out any pages that really caught my eye. And then I wanted to go through those pages and see what common themes they had.
There were some definite common themes. Some very predictable themes. Few surprises.
I’m drawn to greens, blues, and blue-greens. Anyone surprised about that? 😀 Of course not.
(Sorry for the awful pics. I have no idea how to take pictures of glossy magazine pages without glares.)
Blues, greens, and blue-greens are so comforting to me. They feel like “home” to me. They make me feel relaxed, and yet they energize me at the same time.
The biggest surprise for me was the degree to which I’m drawn to purples, after years of hating purples.
That’s actually a page from the Benjamin Moore Fresh Pales pamphlet. I really like both of those wall colors on that page.
I shouldn’t really say that I hated purple for years. That’s not really an accurate description of my attitude towards purples. The issue is that in our very first house, way back in 2003 in Oregon, I decorated the huge bonus room above the garage in purples. My decorating skills at the time left a lot to be desired, and I just did it all wrong. It was like being inside a big grape. So I pretty much swore off of decorating with purples ever again. But I’m coming around on that now. I’m finally getting to the point where I can see purple and not be reminded of that room. I can finally see purples with fresh, new eyes. And it only took 13 years! 😀
So blues, greens, blue-greens, and purples are “me.” I can try to fight it, but I’ll always go back to these colors.
That’s not to say that I don’t like colors from the warm side of the color wheel. I do, very much, like reds, oranges, corals, yellows. But I prefer those colors in small amounts as accents. Decorating with those colors in large amounts actually unnerves me a bit.
My yellow piano?
I’ve never gotten used to it. In my mind, I thought a yellow piano would be great. I loved the pictures I saw of yellow pianos. But actually living with a huge yellow piano in my house is a different story.
It happens every time I try to bring in large amounts of color from the warm side of the color wheel into my house. It’s jarring to me.
So how did I get so off track? One comment. It only took one comment.
You see, sometimes I forget what my goal is with this blog. This blog is about me sharing my DIY journey of turning an old, outdated fixer upper into a home for Matt and me. That’s it. It’s my journey. I do hope along the way that I can teach some things about DIY and encourage those who might want to take on some DIY projects. But this isn’t just a collection of random DIY projects like you find on craft blogs, where the projects probably end up in the trash can minutes after the blog photos are taken and the post is published. No, this is our home. And this blog is my journey.
My job isn’t to bring the latest, cutting edge decorating ideas. It’s not to bring you the latest fads and trends in decorating. It’s not to bring you ideas for various styles of decorating. I’ll leave that to the shelter magazines and TV shows.
My job (at least for now and until this house is finished) is to to work on my house, turn it into a home for us, and share the journey along the way. When the house is done, I’ll reassess what I want this blog to be about at that time. But I’ve still got quite a way to go before I have to cross that bridge.
And sometimes I forget that. I lose my way. I lose my focus. I lose my purpose. And that’s when, in my insecurities, I can let other people’s comments burrow into my brain. And that’s exactly what happened.
It was while I was working on the bathroom remodel, where I painted the walls green and the vanity teal. It was during that project that I read a comment about me (on another site, not on my blog) where the person said something like, “Ugh. More blue and green. Doesn’t she know how to do anything else?” Or it was something to that effect. And perhaps there was a description of me like “one trick pony” or something like that. I really can’t remember the exact details.
All I know is that in that instant, that comment struck me, and made me feel embarrassed and insecure. And it was in that moment that I decided in the next room I did, I would be sure to bring in lots of warm colors and get out of my blue and green rut.
Well, I’ve learned my lesson. First of all, I shouldn’t be wasting precious time reading comments about me on other sites (and I no longer do, and haven’t in a very long time). Second, I have to be confident and know who I am, and remember what my blog is about. And third, blue and green isn’t a rut for me. Those just happen to be the colors that feed me, relax me, energize me, and make me feel comfortable and at home. There’s no need for me to try to change that.
All of that to say that these last few days have actually been very good for me, and I have my decorating plan done. I’m very excited about it, and it’s very different from the direction I’ve been heading for the last year. I do have big changes coming, and while I know some people won’t like them, I hope you’ll enjoy the journey anyway.
And this time, I’m going to keep the specifics of my plan to myself. 🙂 At least for now. Rather than share the ideas upfront, I plan instead to just share them as they unfold.
Many changes are ahead. 🙂