You know how I’m always saying that I need my creative breaks in order to keep myself motivated and keep my momentum going while working on my house? That’s why, in the midst of chaos, and with rooms that are in complete disarray, I take time out to paint a piano or paint a buffet. That’s why, before a room remodel is even finished, I take a day and work on some artwork for the (not yet finished) wall. My process doesn’t make sense to a lot of people, but those creative, fun breaks are what I need to keep going.
Well, what you’ve seen lately is exactly what happens when I don’t allow myself those creative breaks. Right now, I feel like I’m completely losing steam. I walk into my music room/dining room/entryway lately, and I’m faced with so many BIG projects that need to be done, and should be done, before the fun, creative stuff can start happening, and I get frustrated. And then I procrastinate. And when I do force myself to work on it, I work so inefficiently (how long has it taken me to do my music room ceiling now?), and I have a very hard time staying focused. And with lack of focus comes a tendency to make more mistakes.
I made a pretty big mistake on my music room ceiling these last couple of days, and fortunately I caught it in time to correct it. As you know, I’m doing a wood slat ceiling in the mucic room, and I shared some diy tips for this project a few days ago about how I do that. One thing I forgot to mention is that after installing each and every wood slat, it’s important to measure to be sure that they’re all going on evenly. In other words, it’s a huge mistake to just rely on your spacer to get them all on straight.
I was doing just fine on this first section of ceiling.
I would use my spacer as I nailed a slat to the ceiling, and then measure at each end (from the edge of the slat to the wall) to be sure each one was even. If it was just a hair off, I’d know to correct it with the next one.
Everything was going smoothly. Then the next day, I worked on this next section. I wasn’t in the mood to work on it, but I forced myself to do it anyway.
And because I wasn’t really into the project, and would have rather been doing something fun and creative, I was distracted. And when I get distracted and force myself to work on something I really don’t want to do, I make mistakes. I put on the next ten or so boards without doing a bit of measuring to be sure everything was going on straight.
Big mistake. BIG mistake. When I started working on it again yesterday, it dawned on me that I hadn’t done a bit of measuring on those boards. And when I measured, I was a full inch off. The edge of the board on the left side was 47 inches away from the wall, while the edge of the same board was 46 inches away from the wall. An entire inch off!!
So as I installed the remaining boards, I had to course correct. I used my spacer in the middle of each board, but on the right side I had to push the boards closer together (just a hair on each board so as not to make it really noticeable), and on the left side I had to make them just a bit further apart than the width of my spacer. Over the course of the next ten or so boards, making that slight adjustment on each one worked, and the final board ended up being perfectly square with the wall. But mistakes like that are ones that I generally don’t make if I’m really interested in, and excited about, the project I’m working on.
I’ve just reached a point in these rooms where I’m quickly losing motivation to work on any of the projects I should be working on. I don’t what to sand the drywall on my dining room ceiling, or trim out my windows, or wood fill and caulk all of the wall trim, or install crown moulding. I’d much rather paint a big painting for my entryway, or make the pendant lights for my entryway, or make a ceiling light for my music room, or paint my dining room table, or work on my “wallpaper” in the music room. The last fun (to me) project I did was paint my piano, and that was two months ago! Two months!!
I used to feel like my need for creative breaks was a lack of self-discpline, and that idea was reinforced even more when people questioned me about it. “Why in the world are you working on that right now when you’ve got entire rooms that are torn apart and don’t even have finished drywall?” But I’ve come to realize that it has nothing to do with self-discipline. It’s just simply how my brain is wired. It’s how my particular personality functions. For me, those creative outlets are like coming up for air. It’s what sustains me as I take a deep breath and head back down under the water for as long as I can. And while that “coming up for air” looks different for each of us, depending on our needs, our personality types, etc., we all need to come up for air in our own way every now and then.
So why am I telling you this? Because I know it’s obvious that I’m running out of steam. 🙂 You all know it. I’m sure you’ve sensed it more and more with each blog post I’ve written over the last four weeks or so (or with each weekday that I’ve skipped blogging altogether). And I can’t help but wonder if a few of you may have even asked yourself, “Could this be the end of Addicted 2 Decorating?” 😀
No. It’s not the end. I’ve still got a ton of work to do on this house and our one acre of land. And as long as I have projects to do around here, and people are still interested in seeing what I’m up to, I’ll be blogging about them. But right now, I’m definitely running out of steam. I am going to make myself push through, because right now, stopping to do any of the creative and fun projects that I want to do for these rooms just doesn’t make sense. I’d just have to do them, and then store them, and that kind of takes the fun out of it. So I’ll press through with the necessary stuff, and eventually get to reward myself with the fun stuff.
All of that to say…I’m trying my hardest to be excited (or at least fake excitement) about drywall, and wall trim, and window casings, and wood ceilings, and crown moulding. But I’m not really good at faking it, and I know lots of you can sense my boredom. It’s not the end. It’s just a lull. 🙂
Addicted 2 Decorating is where I share my DIY and decorating journey as I remodel and decorate the 1948 fixer upper that my husband, Matt, and I bought in 2013. Matt has M.S. and is unable to do physical work, so I do the majority of the work on the house by myself. You can learn more about me here.